It is my assertion, or contention as seen by some, that ancient and timeless truths exist within the edifices of institutions that ostensibly tell the public an opposing and oppressive story. However the social gathering of Kindred has access to a Spirit that resonates hiddin within the gathering. An example for me is the edifice of the Seventh Day Adventist church. This is an institutional structure that houses a foul doctrine based upon monotheist psycho-cruelty. In my youth I was presented with a viscious deity who was to smite just about everybody (including Adventists)in the final last day. Guess what. There is no 'last day' and we refuse to be smote because we have the power of our True Selves which is described by a coherent and powerful polytheism. An important Heathen and heretical concept.

I have mentioned before that we prefer to use 'Heathen' over 'Pagan' to describe the healing process of taking back our heritage. This distinction is not as essential as it seems. 'Pagan' is an acceptable word because of its frequent use in good contexts and also because of our historical conflict, admiration and sometimes alliance with Rome in terms of military and politics.

A lesser and more corrupt form of Rome drifted down through history to become institutions like the Adventist conclave where I found myself with family and friends. I always wondered why the ghastly doctrine was not mentioned at family and church social gatherings like picnics and potlucks. I wanted to know how we could beat the horrific odds so that more of my loved ones could be saved. I now believe silence about the vile doctrine was because my elders instinicitvely knew that the christian doctrine was wrong, while the gathering was True.

Thews (ancient ehical customs) call now, so I must close todays post and attend to paramount daily reponsiblilities. I will soon describe in more detail the actual worldview and practices of being Heathen.

I'm back. Some alternative history novels have offered intriguing possibilities for cultures that might have been. While these novels present a violent and dramatic context, since they are entertainment, we might look at some more prosaic scenarios for alternative states of mind and social dynamics. Things could have been different.

On a more personal level,its up to me to recreate my past and see how the present is improved. If I had not gone down an ignorant road, believing that money and power were wrong, that alcohol was for obsessive and excessive long-term escape, and that dominant cultural powers had good and wise intentions with their threatening world-view,then I might have had a true frame of reference to guide me in my youth. As it was, I fell into uncultered alcohol abuse. The only available recovery mechanism made me choose a program that had horrific consequences for myself and many of my people. That horrific choice was accepting what I shall call the 'atrocity and abomination'. This shall hereafter be abbreviated as, 'AA'. It was in this culture of medieval self-loathing and surrender to the christian hierarchy of personality and values that I encountered a tremendous loss of fortune and will to live. I am getting back my fortune and will to live.

I think I've figured out how to edit a blog when I must leave and return so often. See you later.

It's later. Mission accomplished. By the very definition of the A.A. program I was on the path of surrender. But surrender to what? Surrender to the meta-political institution of anti-life that gained power in the Middle Eastern/Meditteranean world and aggresively took up their mandate to inflict their atrocity on the rest of the world.

It was my previous and more fortunate knowledge of more positive-life and enriching metaphysics that led me to an alert rejection of the foul doctrine and a sense of the likelihood of a greater truth. Some of those earlier influences were Edgar Cayce, Fate magazine, Albert Einstein, and my own grandfather's quiet truth. Granted, these are not the most profound sources of a Teutonic truth that I might have found available in the works of Nietzsche, Heidegger, or Germanic Myth scholars, but when the heart of a people dwells within, anything of some value can enlighten a greater value. There was mystery and magic here that I was fortunate enough to touch upon, but not fortunate enough to persue fully at the time. So since 'karma' was a concept that seemd to explain much in terms of a rational unerstanding of the causes behind the effects we experience -- I found myself enmeshed in Orientalism. Eastern philosophies were the most accessable souces of this revelation since our own teachings had been surpressed long ago. During my A.A, tenure, I found myself attending some Buddhist meetings. This was only to become a Japanese/Up With People Concert program of enforced activity and coerced proslytizing. Ultimately this did not lead to integrated Spiritual growth with tangible connections to that Spiritual Kindred Energy described earlier.

We must learn to ignore the more socially available but lesser impulses from outside environments and trust more to the Inner Being. There is a greater destiny for myself and my people. Independence to persue that greater destiny takes us back to the beginning and takes us forward into forever.

If there had been an early introduction to the ancestral lore that presented Odin, Freya, kindred, honor, tribe and the thews, I could have dealt with aspects of living in a victorious way. This would have avoided the weakened condition that led to victimization by alien agendas. In the future, I hope that more young people can explore the European way that leads to a constructive life of frith and weal.

Some word definitons from a surpressed language (our own) might be in order here:

"Frith" means "peace" but it has a meaning that is more profound than mere 'serenity'. Frith is a dynamic state of well-being that embraces an active persuit of healthy physical and emotional living.

"Weal" means prosperity and good fortune. It is the root source of of the word "wealth".

"Thews" are ethics based upon ancient customs that are proven to be benificial to the Self and the community. These can be found primarily throughout the Poetic Edda.

Edred Thorsson points out the the Troth is all about ACTION. He acknowledges that this action can take the form of thought, study, meditation, and divination but actualization of what we have learned must be applied to the environment. That is where I fell short. If I had taken responsibility long ago I would have taken some criticism, been called strange, been called selfish, but we ALL would have been in better circumstanes. There are two regrets that I have. First, that if I had received the proper education early from lore and ethics passed down about gathering, kindred, alcohol, tribe and honor, I would have found in Euro-mythic patterns the way that would have led to a more constructive way of dealing with everything. Second, if I had applied the teachings after I did become aware, I would have advanced both my own better destiny and that of my people. Fortunately the ancestral past and even my own past efforts are rich with dynamic wisdom and action that has been taken towards weal.